I am officially a college graduate. I have a Bachelor’s degree in Political Science, a minor in Biblical Studies, a lot of great memories, and the best friends I could have ever asked for.
And I don’t know what to say right now.
A part of me is in denial. It hasn’t quite sunk in that I am not moving back to Grove City in August. I know I used to complain about the tests and the hard work, but I have grown so much in the last four years. [I’m significantly better at Jeopardy! than I was in High School]. I think that my brain is aware that I just left my best friends in the world, and that I am going to be more separated from our beautiful community than I ever have been in the last 4 years. And I don’t want to process that. So I’m not.
Another part of me is absolutely, positively PSYCHED. I am a college graduate, the world is my oyster, and WOOHOO. I have been in school for 17 years of my life, and I am finally done. That’s huge.
The last part of me is strangely disappointed. I guess I’ve always thought that by the time I graduated from college, I’d have it all together. (I know, what a joke)! I’ve been waiting for this moment for 17 years! I’d hoped that graduating from college would be that one moment where everything would finally be the way I wanted it.
No, graduating from Grove City was not the big moment I wanted it to be. But my four years at college are made up of thousands of little moments that have completely changed who I am. Moving onto a hall of 30 amazing women. Meeting my RAs, Lauren and Katie, who poured into me and taught me so much about the Lord. Living with Sims and Lopez, and discovering how to compromise and how to love well. Doing ridiculous things like dressing up in sheets–just for fun. Becoming an RA, and learning how to love even better. Dominating at Greek Sing. Praying with my friends. Asking my friends to pray for me when I didn’t know how to pray. Worshiping God on the bleachers on our last night together.
I can only look back, praise God for the amazing 4 years at Grove City, and continue living my life. God only knows what the next few years are going to look like, and what normal, yet extraordinary little moments they will hold.