I realized that I haven’t updated with anything significant in awhile. Bad Molly. But life has been really crazy recently, so don’t be too mad. And, if you’re reading this, you’re one of the only ones.
1. Classes. Classes are going pretty well. I am constantly amazed at how well I am doing. I think I’ve finally learned the minimum amount of effort that it takes to do well. Unfortunately, I am not really loving my classes. I’ve been reflecting on the importance and need for education, recently. Should’t my classes be challenging and inspiring? Shouldn’t my professors desire for me to learn, not because I need more knowledge, but because God desires so much more for me?
2. Social Life. I am crazy obsessed with my friends. I know, I know, that sounds weird. But those crazy people have taught me so much about community and true friendship. ”
True friendship is a sacred, important thing, and it happens when we drop down into that deeper level of who we are, when we cross over into the broken, fragile parts of ourselves. We have to give something up in order to get friendship like that. We have to give up out need to be perceived as perfect. We have to give up our ability to control what people think of us.
Recently, I had a mini-crisis with Clowns for Christ. One of the girls told me that she couldn’t come to an event, so I was going to be the only clown. I sent out a desperate email to my friends, who generally think that clowning is weird, and 3 of them are helping me. It takes a true friend to dress up like a clown.
But seriously. I can see Christ in my friends. And what other purpose is there for friendship?
3. RA. I love being an RA. The girls on my hall are truly incredible, and I have been so blessed by them. Plus, a couple of them are big pranksters, which doesn’t hurt. 🙂
4. God. Oh God. He wants more of me than I’ve given Him. God has really been challenging me to grow and step out this semester. A quote from my journal says, “I don’t want to give up control. You are going to wreck my life, and if I can make myself apathetic, I can hold onto it.” So God’s been pushing me past apathy into a relationship with Him. And it’s really scary. I know in my head that He can and should be trusted with everything, but it’s been really scary.
I know one thing, though. I want to know Him. I want to stop living as though He is made in my image. Because He is bigger than that. I want to know the God who Abraham was willing to sacrifice his only son for. I want to know the God who loved His son fiercely, but let him die on a cross. I want to know the God who rescued a group of self-righteous slaves, and took them back even when they messed up. That’s the God they don’t teach you about in Sunday School.
So yeah. This semester has been crazy. But good. Really, really good.